All the resistance just dropped away

Two weeks ago I was dancing with fear, delaying the sign-off on my book and then I did it. I signed it off. All that resistance, all the anxiety just dropped away after I pressed send on my email to the publisher.

I started to focus on my website. I had never felt much about my website. Well, that isn’t really true. I really didn’t like the look of it, at all. It didn’t reflect who I am. When I thought about working on it I would get tense and have difficulty expressing who I was and what I do. I would get frustrated writing anything about myself.

The most amazing thing happened

Then, the most amazing thing happened.

Words started to flow. The right photographs seemed to just jump out at me.

What flowed out of me was me. It wasn’t a description of who I thought I should be or who I thought I was supposed to be to be successful. I was a description of who I am.

It was like a dam broke and here I was. Not only that but I was telling the world who I was and it felt good.

It felt like home. It is not quite finished but please take a look. Let me know what you think.

It wasn’t me

I realized that I never liked my old website. I am realizing it never reflected who I am. It reflected who I thought I was supposed to be. It was written because aren’t we supposed to have a website? Even the label “Leadership Coach” never resonated with me. It didn’t seem to express properly what I do. I help people recognize themselves. I help them to see just how capable they are. I am able to shift their perspective so they are able to turn towards what life is calling them to be.

We are each so much more than the labels we are given and so much more than the labels we embrace.

I have pretended

When I look back and see how often I have pretended. I have pretended to have it all together when I was, in fact, falling apart. I have pretended to be more confident than I actually felt. I have pretended to be okay when I was deeply hurt. I have pretended to be independent when I longed for community. I have pretended to be happy when I was deeply unhappy.

Pretending didn’t serve anyone and really didn’t serve me. Pretending drained energy that I needed to be.

Self Reflection

• Where are you pretending?
• What label do you apply to yourself that may limit you?
• Where could you compassionately open your heart more to who you are?

Remember, you are amazing, you are capable and you are worth celebrating.